Update

Hello everyone. I am so sorry that it has been a while since I have been on but I have been very busy lately.

Well Serenity came home on Sept. 2, 2009. She is doing very well and is now 9lbs. Unfortunately on the same day that we brought Serenity home my oldest Destiny went into the hospital for Septic knee and ended up having surgery on her knee on Sept. 3,2009. Then 2 weeks later Destiny ended up with H1N1. Thank goodness she is doing very well now and we caught the H1N1 very early and started her on meds ASAP.

Serenity reminds me so much of Chloe that it makes it hard some days. It's almost like she knows what Chloe looks like because she is constantly staring at Chloe's pictures on the wall. I pray this means Chloe is around us. We just had her first birthday and I was a wreck on that day. Her angelversary wasn't quite as bad surprisingly. I think I just knew that it was her moment of peace. I still miss her everyday and find it hard to fight back my tears on a daily basis. I am trying to think of ways to do things in her memory to help other children but can't seem to find the right thing to do yet. I would love to start a fund to go towards finding a cure for children with Thanatophoric Dysplasia to live a full life so that parents do not have to go thru this pain. I want an awareness out there for Thanatophoric Dysplasia so that other parents are not hit with the shock of losing their child to a dysplasia that they had never heard of. If anyone has any ideas or suggestions please do not hesitate to contact me. I could use all the help I can get.

Serenity Faithann is Here

Serenity Faithann is was born on Friday July 24, 2009 at 9:41am. She weighed 3lbs 15oz and 15 3/4 in long. She was born at exactly 31 weeks gestational age. She is doing really well considering she was born 9 weeks early. We are hoping to have her coming home before the end of August. It was a very scary birth and I am still in fear of losing her although the NICU dr and nurses says she is fine.

15weeks pregnant

Well on Friday I officially turned 15 weeks. I had a doctor's appointment on March 13th and baby is still growing like he/she is suppose to. I am still having a hard time with being extremely happy about this pregnancy but am trying. I went to the dr on April 3rd (a week sooner than I was suppose to) and baby is still growing and doing fine. My next appointment is May 8th and will be the most stressful for me as that is when I found out with Chloe that I was going to lose her. I am trying to stay positive as baby has continued to grow on track up til now but I am hoping it all stays the same come my 20 week appointment. I just know that Chloe is staring down from Heaven and watching over this little one. I guess that is the only thing that really helps me get thru this pregnancy. I have been feeling the little kicks of this little one and sometimes he/she gets a good jab into my side. Come May 8th I will be able to tell everyone whether we are having a girl or a boy. So until then......

Chloe's going to be a big sister!

Well I noticed that I hadn't written any posts since the first one in November so here's the 2nd post.

Well Chloe Ann is going to be a big sister come September '09. Chad and I found out January 15, 2009 that God has decided to give us a little miracle. We have never conceived a child without the help of Chlomid until now. We weren't expecting to get pregnant and thought nothing of it. But it is truely a blessing from Heaven. I still have the fear that I am going to lose this baby also but I am slowly with each dr appt getting a little more excited. My first appt was Jan. 30 '09 and it showed me as being 6 wks along and the heartbeat at 88bpm. Instantly the fear set in that I was going to miscarry. Well my dr set another appt for me for 2 wks which would put me at 8wks for Feb. 13 '09. Well that was today and the baby measured at 8wks and the baby's heartbeat is 174bpm! So now the fear of miscarriage has settled but all the fear won't be completely gone until I have an ultrasound at 20 wks that says that my baby is healthy and will come home after birth. So this is my update so far and will try to remember to update more often.